Episode 4: Let The New Year Begin

Hello everyone! I haven't been on here for quite a while. So I thought to start the new year with a new blog instead of partying, spreading COVID.

This year has been a mixed bag for me. The beginning of the year was pretty good but the near-end went downhill. I have learned a lot from these experiences and from other people's advices. Made me realize I need to start focusing on myself more rather than on others that doesn't care much about me. Some people are just toxic, dishonest, fake or/and spoiled assholes. I don't need that for myself and my mental health going into 2021. It's not me that needs to change, I will always be my amazing self. The people around me needs to grow up and change.

I have my fair share of issues personally. My moody behavior and taking my anger out on others with my snarky remarks. A person I know have pointed out those issues on multiple occasions and will get pretty annoyed by it. She knows I'm a pain in the ass (which she is herself for sure), I don't want her to think I'm not good I guess. It makes me feel extremely bad even though I would keep doing it. The reason I act those ways because likely there is something bothering me and have trouble talking about it at times. It's tough for me because I don't really trust anyone and people come, go in your life. I never had a long-standing friendship(s) that have ever lasted for so long so I be quite skeptical.

Hopefully 2021 will be a bright year for me. My new year's resolutions is to treat myself with more self-worth. Work more on myself. Go on a diet, make myself more leaner in the abdominal and try to lose face fat.

Hope everyone stay safe, have fun and have an phenomenal new year!